For when I begin to believe somewhere in the recesses of my heart that mothering is a burden and not a ministry…
When my spirit recoils with resentment because all I do is cook and clean and wash and wash and clean and cook…
For the lonely moments when I struggle that my life was supposed to consist of “more than” the wiping of noses and counters only to get up the next day, and the next, to do it all again…
For the dark days when it can feel like my home is a prison and I am the one being held captive, and I wonder if I missed my “true calling” which was surely something more exciting and more “important” than this–
For the days when despair grips me like a vice and I wonder if I can make it through this hour, let alone this day…
For the quiet sullen moments when the enemy whispers that I am a failure as a parent and wife and friend…
And all the unsettled questions and the fears and worries that I am not enough and I never will be and the realization that the “right way” is the hard way and yup– I’m pretty sure I’m not going to make it…
It’s then—that the voice of truth tells me a different story:
that when I serve them, I’m serving Him…
‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you or see you thirsty and give you something to drink?
When did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’
The king will answer them, ‘I can guarantee this truth: Whatever you did for one of my brothers or sisters, no matter how unimportant they seemed, you did for me.’
“…Putting a child in the middle of the room, and cradling the little one in His arms, Jesus said, ‘Whoever embraces one of these children as I do embraces me, and far more than me–God who sent me.’ ” Mark 9:37
“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the Spirit. For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.” Romans 8:1-6
The waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, –You’ll never win!
You’ll never win.
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says, Do not be afraid!
And the voice of truth says, This is for my glory.
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
–Casting Crowns, Voice of Truth
Praying the Spirit’s peace and rest and LIFE for all you weary mamas during this holiday season and always.